Abandonment and Unforgiveness, Part 1

Recently, my husband and I participated in the Celebrating Life in Recovery course by Cheri Peters. When the course instructor invited me to take the course, at first, I did not think I needed to attend. I considered myself a Christian woman who loved and served the Lord with all my heart. The course took six months, and somewhere along my journey, the Holy Spirit revealed something deeper in me that needed to be addressed.

He showed me that my ministry as a singer would be hampered if I did not let go of the unforgiveness I was holding on to.

More specifically, He revealed I needed healing for my abandonment.

During a session with the instructor and my husband, I broke down in tears at the memory of how my family unknowingly abandoned me after my mother’s sudden death.

As an adult, I still had not healed from that emotional scar.

Experiencing the memories through the eyes of a hurting, lonely twelve-year-old girl felt agonizing. I needed God to help me let go. I reexperienced the hopelessness I felt as a child and the bitter memories of losing my mother. Everyone whom I had counted on to comfort and care for me had moved on with their lives in order to survive their own emotional struggles.

My father was hardly at home, my sisters had gotten married and moved out, and my mother’s best friend was swamped with life’s stresses. I guess everyone assumed I was doing fine. I started to believe them too, but deep inside, I resented each of them for abandoning me—and now I needed to forgive them. Dear friend, although God equips us to do His work and wants to take us deeper, there may be something obstructing us.

There are times when our past hurts resurface, and it’s only then we realize just how much we need Jesus to overcome these emotional hurdles.

Furthermore, being an adult does not mean that all your childhood troubles have been vanquished. If you are still battling with those inner demons of childhood trauma, rejection, abuse, bitterness, abandonment, envy, or low self-esteem, they are poisoning your system. I implore you to let it all go. Give Jesus complete control of your life today.

Drench your mind in His Word. He will show you how to forgive.

You are not alone. He loves you. He will help you.

Raevae Isaac