Letting God Lead

Coming from a family that feels the need to control everything, I have never been the best at putting my trust in God. Anytime I had the opportunity to trust in God and give it to Him, I went the opposite direction and did my own thing.

I was given the opportunity to transfer to a boarding school in Colorado during my junior year of high school. My parents said I needed to go, and I was not happy about it. Instead of embracing an exciting, new opportunity, I tried to hate everything about the school. Because of my stubbornness and inability to let go, I had a miserable year. My parents listened to me constantly complain about how much I wanted to leave.

After much consideration, they decided to give me the option of going to a different school back home for my senior year.

Although I was happy and ready to be back home, something was still off. I had dreams consistently about returning to the school I hated so much.

As the dreams continued, I felt God was pulling me back there.

I had never been so uneasy before, but God was making it clear that it was the place I needed to be to learn to trust Him.

Finally, after a summer of dreams and mixed feelings, I decided to return to Colorado. Just two weeks before the start of school, I asked my parents if we could even afford for me to go back. A few days later, we found out that the school would help pay exactly what we needed to enable me to go.

Even though I wanted to be in control over this decision in my life, I knew I needed to let God take over and trust He knew what was best for me.

Looking back at my experience, I can see that was the best place for me to be. I went in struggling spiritually and mentally and came out closer to God and stronger in every aspect. During times in my life when I want to be in control, I look back on my experience and know to trust in God. Although it may not be easy, I know God will continue to pull me out of the darkness and into Him.

Haley Enochs